lies she told herself - that kept her fat

 

Certainly! Here's a list of the "lies she told herself" (or believed) throughout her weight loss journey, as described in the text:

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Early Lies (Before and During Initial Attempts)

1. "I'm fat because I'm lazy or don’t want it badly enough."

2. "My diet isn’t that bad." – Because she ate salads, avoided fast food, and bought organic.

3. "Maybe it’s just bloat, hormones, or salt." – Minimizing the issue.

4. "I don’t have time for this." – Overwhelmed by stress and schedule.

5. "I just need more willpower." – When struggling, she blamed herself rather than the method.

6. "If I’m not perfect, it’s pointless." – One mistake meant total failure.

7. "If I say no to food, people will think I’m weird, rude, or obsessed."

8. "This plan worked last time, so it’ll work again." – Despite burning out and regaining weight.

9. "Maybe I just love food too much."

10. "Maybe I’m just hungrier than normal people."

11. "Once I hit my goal, I’ll finally love myself and everything will be perfect."

12. "Maybe my body is meant to be at this weight."

13. "Maybe I need to suffer to lose weight."

14. "Something is wrong with me." – Believing she herself was broken, not the approach.

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Midway Lies (Spiraling & Rock Bottom)

15. "I can’t track food again, it’ll make me obsessive."

16. "It’s not the plan, it’s me." – Shifting blame inward after multiple failures.

17. "If I was broken, it’s not my fault." – A subtle lie that offered comfort but also made her feel powerless.

18. "Nothing works for me." – Despite not giving new things a full, fair try.

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Later Lies (Even After Some Insight)

19. "Trying keto again will work now that I have a better relationship with carbs." – A disguised version of an old strategy that didn’t align with her real lifestyle or joy.

20. "I love food more than others." – Until she noticed she was just more mindless around it, or used it for emotional regulation.

21. "If I go all in and it doesn’t work, I won’t survive the disappointment." – Fear holding her back from trying gradual change.

22. "1% change is too slow—it will take forever to be happy." – Belief that small steps delay joy, instead of realizing joy can begin now.

23. "I can't enjoy life until I lose more weight." – Delaying life experiences (e.g., bouldering, travel, photos).